Month of thanks: DAY 14

Today I am thankful that I had so many good years with my aunt.  She left us in December of last year.  I didn’t realize her time was so short when I made last year’s thankful posts.  I am so grateful that I spent nearly every single Friday with her last fall.  It was no coincidence.  It was meant for me to be with her during that time.  It made letting her go a little easier, but nothing will ever fill the void she has left behind.

She understood the battle I face with mental health.  She faced those challenges, too.  She is the person who called me out regarding my eating disorder.  She was there when I found my first gray hair.  There are countless other things we experienced together, but the list is too long for me to even type out.

I miss her so much.  This Thanksgiving will be very challenging between Jim’s passing and hers.  I know they will be with us in spirit.

Giving Thanks: Day 4

Today I want to say that I’m thankful for my mom.  She taught me how to be strong through hard lessons.  She taught me what an education meant, and how important it would be to obtain one.  She taught me that the odds are typically not in our favor, but it’s up to each individual to go beyond those odds; to pull myself up by the bootstraps and go on.

She is the only link I have left to my aunts, my uncle, and my grandparents.  I knew that one day we would travel this road without them, but it’s certainly been harder than either of us ever imagined.  This is our first holiday without my Aunt Evelyn.  Although I grief differently than most, I still feel the pain of her loss.  When my mother talks to me about the loss she feels, I can see that she is trying to make sense of the world without my aunt.  It’s not an easy task by any means.  However, we must move forward, and as she has told me time and time again, “Pull yourself up by the bootstraps!”