The Next Chapter

Hello to my loyal readers. Some of you follow the YouTube re-runs. Others enjoy the Teaser Tuesdays and Guest Posts. No matter what your preference, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Sounds like a farewell doesn’t it? Rest assured, it’s an “Until we meet again.”

I have been managing this blog since December 2012. I have met some pretty fantastic folks through this medium. The next chapter of my life is beginning, however, and with that comes self-reflection and prioritizing.

I enrolled in a Ph.D. program and will begin classes on April 10th. From what I understand, most of my time will be spent reading, writing, and studying. In fact, I’m told that this will take about 20 hours a week out of my time. It’s basically a part-time job. My grand plan was to finish Between Worlds book 4 and then 5. I think that’s going to have to wait.

I will be finished with my Ph.D. in September 2020, maybe sooner depending on how much work I’ve already completed on my dissertation by that time. After that I will be a “doctor.” My specialization will be in education (e.g., an educational psychologist) with an emphasis in teaching and instruction. My dream and sincere hope is that I am then able to climb in academia and grab a full-time, tenure track professor’s position.

Here’s how I look at the situation. If I lived through all of the turmoil and hardship of 2014, I can accomplish anything. This path I’m about to take will take time and patience. It will take determination. It will take battling against burn out and taking a few hours of time each day to devote to studying and composition. When it’s all said and done, I will be able to check another thing off of my bucket list: becoming a doctor with pretty little letters after my name: Tracy Wilson, Ph.D. (or Tracee Ford as you know me). When someone says, “Hey Doc,” they will actually be talking to me. I can publish research AND fiction.

I do plan to publish a memoir in October, nonetheless. It’s done and simply waiting for me to hit the “publish” button. It’s going to cover a lot of my personal paranormal experiences, but I have much more to add to that. Still, if I still don’t have peace about this project, it may be placed on the back burner as well, seeing publication at a much later date.

I am also anticipating going back to teaching at the local university part-time in August. Spring semester is wrapping up, which is why I scheduled doctoral classes through the summer. So, when Fall rolls around, I will be not only instructing, but I will be a student as well as a mom and a wife. I’m not sure I will have the time I need to be a blogger and a YouTube creator until I get through this journey.

With that being said, below you’ll find the remaining Guest Posts and YouTube schedule below. If after reading this, you decide to get together and send me a boat-load of guest posts, that’s okay. I’ll keep scheduling folks as long as the submissions keep coming in. If not, that’s okay, too.

3/28: B. Ferrante, guest post

4/4: Mary Edwards, guest post

4/7: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Scary Movies

4/11: I. Monique, guest post

4/18: Mary Edwards, guest post

4/21: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Spirit Guides

4/25: C. Zielinski, guest post

5/5: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Orbs

5/9: Mary Edwards, guest post

5/16: W. Luthman, guest post

5/19: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Soulmates

5/23: Mary Edwards, guest post (final Teaser Tuesday post)

6/2: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Divine Intervention

6/16: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Healers

7/7: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Seers

7/21: Freaky Friday YouTube, Spiritus Walking: Faith (final Freaky Friday post)

Again, thank you for always reading my rants and my posts. I won’t disappear completely, I promise. I have too much to give. This might end up being a great place to post my research findings, so those of you who are geeks like me might enjoy my publications.

Peace out.

Teaser Tuesday: Blessing of the Elements

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“Do you realize,” he began, “that what you ask me to do, I could be executed for? You are to be married,” he said, coming to his senses.

“I do know this. But, when we were together today, I didn’t feel hopeless anymore. When you kissed me, I felt the blood warm in my veins and I felt like living again. I felt joy. I felt my heart beating once more,” she confessed.

“Highness, you have been in a very dark place; isolated. I’m afraid anyone could have shown you kindness and you would have latched onto them.”

“You are not just ‘anyone.’ You are my bodyguard. I have no choice but to trust you because you defend my life. So, if you are sworn to protect me, it should be easy for me to trust you. You have asked for my friendship and you have it.”

“But the feelings I… we… you… have are brought about by tragedy. We must be mindful of this.”

“Did you want to kiss me today?” she asked.


“And you said I was beautiful?”


“Do you think me kind and deserving of love and happiness?”

“Of course.”

“Then respect me when I ask you to give me your affection. I must spend the rest of my life with a man I do not love. If you are able to share love with me now, it will give me the strength to face what is ahead.”

“Princess, the weight you place upon my shoulders is unbearable.”

Thankful Challenge: Day 13



Today, I’m thankful for goals. I’ve set many goals in my life. Some I’ve been unable to harness. Others, I’ve roped and have been able to check off. One of those goals was becoming a published author. My books are my life. They are a piece of me that I’ve decided to share with the world. Although my ability to give time to writing has become limited, my love for the written word hasn’t changed.

When I embarked on this adventure before I could even write. I was telling stories when I was little. I was creating worlds as a child. When I was 16, I finished my first novel. It has yet to be published. In 2012, I published THE FINE LINE. A publisher picked it up in February 2013. Another book followed and another, and another. I don’t have anything on the books for early 2017, but in the fall of 2017, my memoir is coming out. I decided to wait for various reasons, but it’s coming.

My motto used to be DREAM BIG, but something change inside of me in 2014 and this year I decided to change my trademark to THE SMART MOUTH WRITER. It suits me. I can be sort of brash if pushed. I don’t do politically correct. I don’t care what someone thinks about my novels. If you like them, that’s wonderful. If you don’t that’s okay, too. I don’t write them for anyone. I write them for me.

When I left the traditional publishing world, I started Ozwind Publishing. Without my husband, I couldn’t have accomplished this goal. Since its birth, I’ve learned how to format, create book covers, and publish without the help of others. That type of independence isn’t something you can buy. It’s the very definition of self discovery and reaching for the stars.

I’m working on several novels right now, but I’m not entirely committed to them. It’ll come. It always does. It is who I am and I am grateful to have been given such a beautiful gift.

Teaser Tuesday: Blessing of the Elements

“I have foreseen some things, Ziltra. Hoje and Osatam are, indeed, filled with hate. There is a witch somewhere who gives her more power and Osatam herself possesses power that I am only beginning to understand.”

Piercing Journal Entry 4

Hiya! Well, I got inked again yesterday. I think I am now addicted. 13406870_10208805604531281_2540888256613998122_nI chose the wolf because Oakoe is my spirit animal. If you read one of my earlier posts, you know about my experience with meditation and Reiki. Well, I couldn’t think of a better way to symbolize my spirit animal. The blue represents the Dark Mistress from my book, BLESSING OF THE ELEMENTS, and how the moon gave the main character unlimited spiritual and physical power. AND this also is a great way to represent my own dog. He isn’t wolf-like (he is lab/German Shepherd mix), but he is my baby and I wanted something to show how much I love him. When he passes, I will put the date with this somehow. As most of you know he has cancer, but you wouldn’t know it by the way he acts.

The other thing is that one of the piercers at this particular shop advised me to use Vitamin E oil for the tiny piece of scar tissue around my piercing. I am using it along with chamomile soaks. They explained that the Sea Salt Soaks is so that the body won’t reject the piercing (who knew?).

I tried the scar cream and my piecing didn’t like it. It just goes to show you the difference in people and skin types. What some piercings will tolerate, others won’t. So, that’s a work in progress.

I am getting my last tattoo for the summer soon. I’ll start again next summer with fre13406868_10208788523984278_3563157704827550700_nsh ideas and things that symbolize things dearest to me. I’m trying to think of something to symbolize my husband, but I tread lightly there. I have heard horror stories surrounding names being tattooed and then break-ups occurring. I do have a photo of the tat I got to symbolize my son, though, and wanted to share it with you, too.

I have an album of Facebook as well as Pinterest filled with ideas about tats. Some of them are unbelievable with the detail and artistry. I absolutely love the raw talent of a tat artist. I’ve never seen anything quite like it.

I have been asked this by several people: “Are you having a midlife crisis?” The answer is “no.” My therapist was even worried until I explained it to her like this:

I’m 40, that’s true, and had never been inked before. I tried to get my nose pierced 4 other times and this is the first time it’s taken without serious complications. I wanted to get tattooed as a teenager, but wasn’t allowed to and was really heavily into church (as most of you here know by now), so that was a no-no. Then all of the jobs I had didn’t exactly like them, except for a few places I worked. The diabetes has held me back from doing so much, but it is well controlled without insulin. It’s time I started being who I am and quit trying to play the part of someone I’m not. I have always wanted piercings, tats, and my hair in more non-conventional shades. Dark make-up was also something I liked, but I didn’t do it because I was afraid. I had always been told that dark make-up “makes you look hard,” whatever the hell that is supposed to mean. (smh…) I’m not afraid anymore. I’m done with prim and proper. Inside I’ve always been a free spirit. It’s time to let that shine. I write adult horror after all. Maybe it’s time to let some of the darkness out; get some sunlight on it.

13325592_10208725097158647_8765301369317144491_nSo, to conclude, I’m sharing with you the Wonder Woman tat I’m getting in a few weeks.

Here’s the thing… I feel like WordPress is a positive community. I love reading your shares and your stories. So, I feel like I can share here as well. This is a safe place for me to show my true feelings and reveal myself, so I am thankful for that. Anyway, here’s my next and final tat for Summer 2016.

Teaser Tuesday: Blessing of the Elements

teaser2The clatter of metal echoed down the hallway and a guard appeared in the doorway. He led them to a meeting room in the South Wing. When they entered, Queen Osatam and her guests were already seated around the table.

Everyone sat in their designated chairs. Last to arrive was the general and the soldier; both dressed in metal armor, the breastplates bearing the kingdom’s crest.

“I thought I said I wanted to speak to you alone King Jyson,” Osatam said.

“I will not meet with anyone by myself. You are fortunate that I did not summon the entire council here,” Jyson stated bluntly.

Two Lives to Separate

Just a PSA… I am cleaning up my PERSONAL Facebook account. Please, please, please do not be offended if you find yourself “unfriended.” It’s nothing personal at all. I had someone get mad at me today for doing the sweep. The fact is, I have never met most of the people who were swept off. I probably communicated with most of the people who were swept in my capacity as an author. However, if I’m to be true to my quest of separating my two lives, then I must continue with the separation. My author page is welcome to all. My personal life has to stay that way… personal.

Facebook tends to be an area of stress for me. If it weren’t for the author page, I would probably deactivate the account altogether. There’s too much fighting and bickering and horror on that site. For someone with PTSD and Anxiety Disorder, it can be a little overwhelming. It has its pluses, such as finding businesses, keeping up with “pages,” and information about various other things. All in all, I think it plays a more negative role in my life.

I use this blog, sometimes, as a personal journal. That’s my right. This isn’t some place I go to read about people hating one another or smacking each other in the face for personal belief differences. If I want to view that junk, all I have to do is log into Facebook.

I have actually limited my presence on several social media sites. I’m off of Tsu and LinkedIn. I don’t really get on Twitter much either. I feel that if someone likes my books, they will look me up on Amazon or Createspace or Smashwords.

The truth is, it’s time for a break from writing. I’ve put out four books. I need time to relax and think and recharge. Holding myself to time frames for writing isn’t what it’s about for me. I did that for this last book. I didn’t like how it made me feel. I felt rushed. I need to write because I want to, not because I feel like I have to. So, this summer, if I choose to work on a book that’s great. If not. That’s okay, too. If I never put out another book in my life, that’s fine also. I wasn’t ever looking to be famous. I wrote those books because I enjoyed the process and the creativity, especially The Between Worlds Books. The fourth book, Blessing of the Elements, was more of a personal catharsis, which I’ve stated before. And now that it’s done, I feel free and sort of empty, but not in a bad way. It was a way for me to move on from all of the pain from enduring 2014.

So, again, do not be upset if you are not on my personal profile’s “friends” list. You can always find me on I post there regularly and it’s usually inspirational quotes. I also have this blog hooked up to it, so when Teaser Tuesday goes live here, it goes live there also.

Have a peaceful Saturday. I hope mine stays that way, too.

Teaser Tuesday: Blessing of the Elements

teaser3wtichOnce Carkri felt confident in her knowledge of invocations, she cast a mighty spell upon herself. Her horrid appearance disappeared and she became more beautiful than she ever dreamt possible. Her obesity was gone and her hair was as smooth as black silk, she was unrecognizable. She changed her identity, calling herself Iana, and assumed a teaching position in Buscom’s school.3-d

She socialized and lived among the others with her cloaked appearance. But, each night she had to cast the spell anew. If she didn’t, her ugliness returned.

Maintaining her home outside the kingdom’s wall, Carkri took advantage of the privacy. The solitude was essential for practicing the dark magic.