Hi everyone. I’ve miss you 🙂
Today I am posting the first three videos in the Stages of Chaos Series from my Youtube channel. I felt led to do this because in April my life was significantly impacted by chaos. The best way for me to work through such things is to learn about ways to overcome what I’m being faced with. I figured if I felt like that, surely others must feel that way also. I feel like my pain can help someone else who might be going through a similar situation. I also feel like these stages are sound, even if I did coin them myself. I am not a scientist, but I have a pretty good grasp on the human condition. I understand what it’s like to feel like you are facing darkness with no way out. So, that is where this series came from; my own darkness.
There is so much more I’d like to say, but I can’t at this point. When the time is right and I am permitted to expound upon what brought all of this on, I will share it with you. Someone out there may benefit from my story. In fact, I have considered writing a book about what is happening. I think it would be a great story: corruption, politics, hate, revenge, the main character being forced to make difficult choices just because of someone else’s thirst for power and control. It’s got all of the components of a best seller. So, perhaps that is why all of this has happened. Perhaps I am meant to tell the story, exposing those hiding behind their shallow morals and weak ethics, doing harm all in the name of what they say is right. We shall see, I suppose.
I am not working outside of the home, in case you haven’t figured that out by now. I am relaxing this summer, even though that wasn’t what others had planned for me. I think the ultimate plan was for me to be sitting in a corner crying somewhere, losing my mind as well as all of my worldly possessions. Trust me, I’ve had my share of crying since April, but here’s the thing people may not know about me. I am driven, I am strong, and most of all, I have faith. What was meant to destroy me has only made me more determined and has brought me back to a spiritual place where I can get close to my Creator. I guess you could say, the plan backfired for those who meant to do harm to me, at least that is how it looks from where I’m standing.
I take comfort in the fact that all things, even if completed in the dark, always comes to light. Even though things can appear a certain way on the surface, there’s always a deeper, even more sinister plan sometimes. Those actors in that play will be exposed. I am waiting for that to happen. That will help me move through the next to the last stage of chaos, resolve. Understand, I’m not revenge thirsty, but when someone maliciously puts a plan together to cripple me, my natural response is to fight. And that, my friends, is who I am. I was raised a fighter and I will always fight for injustice… okay, so that’s a little dramatic (now I do sound like Wonder Woman). Still, the basis is the same; I will not stand by and allow someone to run me over or try to destroy who I am and what I’ve worked for. I will admit my faults and seek repentance, but the accusers are often just as guilty as the person being accused. They are called hypocrites. They hide behind that shield of goodness and put on that innocent smile, but inside they are hollowed out and selfish. They are overconfident, pious, and proud. Guess what usually happens to those types of people? They fall… hard!
I am taking classes this summer to stay busy and there is a part-time job on the horizon as well as a possible full time job. Where those opportunities lie will remain close me; have to keep some people guessing. No, I won’t make a lot of money, but if the loss of my job has taught me anything it is that money doesn’t equal happiness. That is a lesson I will take with me forever. Even the most awful situations have a positive lesson to be learned, as I’ve said many times.
For those of you wondering what is happening with me in the publishing world, there is nothing coming right away. The second book in the Between Worlds Series was submitted for edits, but I don’t look for it to be out until the latter part of this year or the early part of next. The third book in the series is being co-authored by Jayme Ronan. So, when my classes are finished we’ll be hitting that book hard.
I also want to make you aware that I have deleted my “book” pages from Facebook. This means that there is no active page for The Fine Line, Idolum, or Through Glass Darkly. All announcements regarding my books will come through my Facebook author page, http://www.facebook.com/AuthorTraceeFord.
There have also been issues with people trolling my Facebook’s personal account as well as my page, so I am becoming very picky as to who I friend and have made several announcements about spies who have been watching my page for the purposes of doing harm to me (not physically, but emotionally, i.e., creating more problems for me in the work force). I won’t tolerate my life being put under a microscope. Even though I am an author, I expect some personal respect and space.
I have also deleted my LinkedIn profile. I have restricted various components on my Facebook accounts as well. I never thought I would have to amp up that kind of privacy.
The second issue of Jungle of Dreamin’ is coming out July 1st. This quarter’s featured authors include M.R. Joseph, Kaprice Potter, and Meaghan Fisher.
So, I think I’m done ranting. Please, enjoy the Stages of Chaos Series. I’ll post the rest of the installments as they air. Have a great day followers, readers, and fans! Remember to dream big and no matter what you do, be WONDERFUL at it!
DENIAL, FEAR, SURVIVAL
ANGER & RESENTMENT