Tonight is my great honor to interview RaeBeth Buda, another participant from my Spring Fever Blog Tour. I want to welcome her back since she’s released two new books. She is self published and very talented.
Here’s how to connect with RaeBeth:
Author Facebook Page Link
Her books can be found via Amazon.
Books written by RaeBeth include: Silenced, Silenced 2: The Overtaking, and Saying Goodbye Without Saying Hello
Excerpt- Chapter 11
Silenced 2: The Overtaking
The house looks too familiar. As I turn the corner, I see someone lying on the floor. Without delay I realize it’s Sarah. It’s hard for me to see, but there are several things in the room which stand out. I see a white book shelf, which matches the other furniture in the room. On the shelves, the scrapbooks stick out.
I realize everything in this room is black and white, except for the scrapbook. They are the only things in the room that has color.
I run to the closet and the same boxes I moved earlier are in color too. I bend down to move the boxes. I move the small piece of the wall that hides Sarah’s cutting tools. The tools aren’t there but there’s a piece of paper; I pull it out. Opening it up, I see there are words written on it. Once it was fully unwrapped, I can read it:
I want to thank you so much for all you’ve done to help my mom and dad through my death. I know this is really hard for you to do, but I know deep down inside you can handle it. I want to thank you for removing my “tools” before Mom found them. Please don’t worry about me. I’m a lot better now than I was my entire time on earth. Heaven is exactly how I pictured it to be and more. I’m at peace now, and I couldn’t be happier. I love you Amber, and I always will.
Your Best Friend, Sarah
I fold up the note and slip it into my pocket. In an odd way, this sends love and comfort through my body. I replace everything in the closet, I return to the room to find Sarah’s body isn’t lying there anymore.
I decide to toddle down to the family room to discover what else I can find. When I enter the room, I don’t see anything out of the ordinary. Everything’s in place. I walk over to a picture of Sarah from her sixteenth birthday. Her dress was made for this party and especially for her. Allen made sure she felt like a princess. She liked the pink, girly girl look at this time. Well, we both did. This is when we tried changing our look to fit in and see if that made a difference in how the girls treated us. Needless to say, it didn’t.
Just as I turn around, the TV comes on and it’s loud. I can’t even hear myself think. I jump when I see what’s on. It’s the tape Allen and Donna made for Sarah for her third birthday and mine too. We shared our party. As I watch the tape, I notice the same guy that was in the picture, is on this tape too. Who in the hell is he?
We have the same outfits, ate the same cake, and got pretty much the same gifts. This was the party that tied us together. This was the time everyone said we would grow to be sisters, and we did.
I hear a gentle and calming voice coming from the doorway. I turn to see Sarah standing there. I don’t know how to react; I just stand there. I’m not sure if I should talk to her or if it’s just my mind messing with me. A few moments go by and I decide I need to talk to her.
“Sarah.” I say wearily.
“Please don’t feel bad for me.” Sarah starts to say. “I’m happier now. I don’t feel the pain or darkness anymore. This was for the best.”
“Before you go on, answer me a few questions. Why? What happened? What went wrong?” I ask her.
“I fell into a deep depression when you moved. I tried calling you several times, but hung up before the phone connected. I didn’t want to seem like I was bothering you.”
“Sarah, you could never do that! We are sisters.”
“I didn’t do it on purpose. It just kind of happened. I was trying to take away my really bad headache. The bottle I got them from didn’t say how many to take. I started with one, and it didn’t do anything. I took another, still the same thing. The third, and then the fourth. After I took the fourth, my body seemed to take control all on its own. The next thing I knew, well… here I am. I wasn’t trying to kill myself. I just wanted my headache to go away. Don’t feel bad for me. I am free.”
“It’s good to know the truth. I miss you. We all do. And…” I begin to say, but Sarah cuts me off.
“I don’t have much time. I want you to know that Landon is good. He will be your husband one day. You may not believe me but just watch. Tell Patrick that Stacey is a good girl. Amber, she’s going through the same thing we did. She needs you. Don’t let him push her away. Casey will be fine. She’ll move on. Hopefully, we can talk again soon. I’m sorry, but I have to go now. Love you bunches lil sis!”
That was it; she disappeared. I fell to the floor sobbing. I cry harder than I ever have. My hands start shaking. I don’t want her to go. I want her to stay. I want her to live!
Her latest work is Saying Goodbye without Saying Hello. It is a personal story about the loss of her child. I want to thank her for sharing her experience with the world because someone out there needs to know they aren’t alone in such a time. The book is in the genre of non-fiction, Christian literature. Because many of her works are based off of her own life experiences, she says that not much research was required.
As most of the authors on this tour, including myself, Buda finds balancing time very challenging. She sets aside certain days of the week just for writing and other days she focusing on spending time with her family. She explained that one of her favorite authors is Jamie Gibson.
She talked about her publishing experience and said, “It’s tough. Especially when marketing takes up so much time. As I see it, you’ll only go as far as your willing to work.” She said that she has been writing all of her life, but it wasn’t until the age of twenty that she realized she wanted to be a writer.
I asked RaeBeth if she had one wish, what it would be. Her answer was exactly what I expected. She said she wants to help people and inspire people. She explained that all of her stories have a message.
She supports charities, just as most of us do. Her focus is on Pregnancy & Infant Loss.
She said that the hardest thing about being an author is this: “As a self published author, the hardest thing is to do everything. I just released my second book and I have another coming out within the next month. I’m very busy with them both and I don’t seem to have time for everything I need to do.” She feels that the best thing about being an author is hearing the feedback from her readers who love her work. She says that it shows her that there’s always a reader someone who is willing to pick up a book and give an author a chance.
As far as the most important thing she wants others to know about her, she said, “At this time, most of my work has an overall message. The Silenced Series is based on self harm and depression awareness. Then, Saying Goodbye Without Saying Hello is written to bring awareness to miscarriage, stillborn, and infant loss.”
I want to thank RaeBeth for taking the time to interview with me. Thanks for following everyone!